Buddy, take care of yourself and your close ones, as that's all that matters in life. The rest is all bs. These are games and should be nothing more than that. If anyone thinks that updates are more important than another person, they're the ones that have a problem, not you. I really hope you bounce back strong and appreciate everything you still have, over what you've lost.You know, this is the first post since my return that got to me a little bit. My original reaction to it was a bit vitriolic (I blame being sick). Or it's just a reaction to the fact that I do feel guilty about how I managed this month.
I see my homie Krypt has also had my back and explained that I have been working and have been paused. But I'd like to talk a bit more about it.
I've also come to realize there's a lot of misinformation about me / things that happened so I think now would be a good time to do what I've admittedly been putting off and explain in detail exactly where my mind is at and why.
Have I been the developer I aspire to be lately? Hell no.
Why is that?
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Fuck, covid sucks so much that my hands hurt from typing this much out.
Guess this is a decent ending point. I just wanted to brain vomit about some stuff and just try to explain the reasoning behind things going the way they have. I may edit more onto this post after my hands stop hurting.
Before I go though I do want to mention that I don't want you guys to be sad for me or anything. This wasn't the goal of the post. It's more of a "look at all the shit I went through and I'm still here fighting and healing so have some faith in me" kind of posts.
Sorry for the book.
On a different note, when did we reach this point where we are suspicious of everything? Is anyone serious about questioning a person that says they lost people dear to them? In a time when people are dropping like flies around us due to Covid, we're still cold and distant? Sad, really sad...