tslojr

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Hey everyone, I hope you're all doing well.

I haven't posted in a while here, I dislike doing so unless I have something direct to share instead of "Still working on it" as I tend to just share those in the discord. But I understand that behavior isn't productive and needs to change.
I have been very vague about things as of late as most of the technical issues stemmed from a personal life update that I don't wish to share much about. I told myself that the best course of action was to pause pledges and offer refunds while I just fix the issues that occurred and move on from there as from my viewpoint that's the only positive outcome.

2025 so far has been just like 2024 for WVM, both on this side and for me. A lot of the same issues popping up and me reacting poorly to them.
Including the issue of me getting worked up and wanting to change things. Around the 19th I was still fixing issues which included having to re-render a section of this update and I started tweaking things again.
I will not defend that, I understand that I've acted very irrationally around this scene. It isn't perfectionism or anything like that, there's just a lot tied up in things and it's very hard for me to describe as a lot of it has honestly just been me trapped in my own head and me letting outside things influence everything. Overthinking and second guessing every little thing. I had similar issues with the first exhibition game but for honestly entirely different reasons.
I do intend to talk more about my struggles with the scene once things are released and I can reference things and give context without major spoilers.
Sitting here thinking about it rationally, I can clearly see that this whole fiasco has not been worth it at all and I just need to release it and move on.
Which is a conclusion I've came to many times, but as release time nears irrationality would take over and I'd panic about things and act like a complete fool.
It has to stop.

But yeah, similar to the past a few well intentioned minor tweaks slowly turned into tweaking entire sections. As I fixed the actual issues I now had to piece together and finish my changes.
It's been a long struggle with a scene that genuinely didn't need or "deserve" the struggle. Which has also helped fuel the flame as I know no matter what the scene is it will not reflect that struggle.
As time has went on it's become more clear that the issue hasn't been the scene itself necessarily but instead issues with myself and my perception that I've attached and projected onto the scene.

And at the end of the day I do not matter, obviously you're all here for the game and I'm very tired of talking about myself in these posts and not just the game.
I'm as excited as all of you are for the return to WVM where the harem fun can continue and that's all I care about right now. I have to stop getting in the way of that.
I gave myself until the end of the month to finish it up and accept it for what it is and finally put it behind me, as it stands right now I'm re-rendering some problem animations in the Jasmine scene. I am not sure if all of the animation render work will be done in time tomorrow as issues or crashes are common and could occur.
If things go smoothly I should be able to release the rest of E13, if there are issues I will still release whatever I'm able to including the rest of the Daliah scene.

So tomorrow evening / night there will be a release. I'm hoping it will be everything but at the least it will be the rest of the Daliah scene and up to wherever I can post in the Jasmine scene with anything left to follow coming in the next day or so.
Pledges will be unpaused after release.

And once again I'd like to remind all of you that pledging right now is not required it is merely to show support right now, all of E13 + E14 will be given to former patrons via the discord. I will also be giving a handful of releases after E14 to former patrons as well.
I'd also like to remind everyone that anyone charged from December 1st, 2024 - January 5th, 2025 is eligible for a refund. Please just DM me here on patreon.


Thank you all so much for everything, I am sorry for putting all of you through this. I wanted January to be the month where I turned it all around but it was just more of the same. I don't want February to continue that trend. I have to be better and I'm sorry that I haven't been.
I will talk to you guys tomorrow.
 

isnt NaN

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..."technically related but different problems".

No, that's not how that works... not even remotely, not ever.

to put some physicality to it an example:
Imagine you're making a book; You're binding it and while it's resting you realize the glue of the spine isn't strong enough to hold the bound pages.

So naturally.. in the process of fixing that you rewrite chapter 13.
 

Felidako

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> It isn't perfectionism or anything like that
> Overthinking and second guessing every little thing
That's quiet literally what perfectionism is but we all know he was just procastinating and not actually productively working on this for an entire year. Which happened because he set his personal bar for the writing way too high. For some reason he tought he'd be the next George RR Martin of erotica VNs. And obviously he couldn't reach that level of quality in writing and got depressed. Which, combined with ADHD, prevents him to sit down on his ass and actually work on something for release.

We all know the scene he is talking about will be absolute ass and we will all laugh at him for struggling over a year on producing this dogshit. :KEK:
 
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Nadira

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That's quiet literally what perfectionism is but we all know he was just procastinating and not actually productively working on this for an entire year. Which happened because he set his personal bar for the writing way too high. For some reason he tought he'd be the next George RR Martin of erotica VNs. And obviously he couldn't reach that level of quality in writing and got depressed. Which, combined with ADHD, prevents him to sit down on his ass and actually work on something for release.

We all know the scene he is talking about will be absolute ass and we will all laugh at him for struggling over a year on producing this dogshit. :KEK:
BD isn't a perfectionist... he is just lazy.
 

Wolfeszorn

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I have been very vague about things as of late as most of the technical issues stemmed from a personal life update that I don't wish to share much about.
Huh. Did his Neuralink Implant malfunction or what? :ROFLMAO: Or how else do you get technical issues through an IRL update?

Anyway, this time i won´t even bother going through his post to analyze the bullshit he´s throwing around... Maybe somebody else wants to do it? I´m just over his fairytales
 

Midnight Ghost

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How do patreons keep falling for this shit? Also he says over and over you don't need to pledge, you can get refunds for dec and jan, so don't pledge until he "actually" releases something, that would put some "actual" pressure on him to release the update and stop fucking around with excuses, especially the bullshit "packaging" and "re-rendering".

He literally types up more words in all his excuses than the actual content updates in between, if he was making a game about excuses it would be on chapter 50 by now. I don't believe anything has been done for EP14 either, he took 2+ years for EP13 but 14 is already done in that same time? b u l l s h i t ! that's just selling future hope that he's been doing something.

Not even a month and he couldn't even keep his word from the new year report. :LOL:
 
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KiryuKazuma095

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if we dont bang Delilah im gonna be upset.....a sad wank XD
It's BD we are talking about , disappointment is pretty high but if he manages to release the update before my personal deadline to him and we don't bang Delilah "the infamous underworld boss " well my reaction would be something
between this





and this



put it on 07:37
 

snakeplisskin

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That's quiet literally what perfectionism is but we all know he was just procastinating and not actually productively working on this for an entire year. Which happened because he set his personal bar for the writing way too high. For some reason he tought he'd be the next George RR Martin of erotica VNs. And obviously he couldn't reach that level of quality in writing and got depressed. Which, combined with ADHD, prevents him to sit down on his ass and actually work on something for release.

We all know the scene he is talking about will be absolute ass and we will all laugh at him for struggling over a year on producing this dogshit. :KEK:
Ironic you choose George RR martin who can't finish the game of thrones books to save his life
 

ahtabom

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That's quiet literally what perfectionism is but we all know he was just procastinating and not actually productively working on this for an entire year. Which happened because he set his personal bar for the writing way too high. For some reason he tought he'd be the next George RR Martin of erotica VNs. And obviously he couldn't reach that level of quality in writing and got depressed. Which, combined with ADHD, prevents him to sit down on his ass and actually work on something for release.

We all know the scene he is talking about will be absolute ass and we will all laugh at him for struggling over a year on producing this dogshit. :KEK:
I THINK his problem is trying to justify the MC's magnetism with women and why he is "special", that cult talk about calling him "king" and all that...

In the past, in the discord group, he ended up getting ahead of himself in DISCARDING some possibilities, such as supernatural reasons, experimental drugs, among others...

I believe that, in his head, the conversation with Dahlia should either answer definitively or at least give more clues about the reasons... but at this point, I imagine that he himself does not have a definitive answer. He got lost in his own story.
 

Niuul

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I THINK his problem is trying to justify the MC's magnetism with women and why he is "special", that cult talk about calling him "king" and all that...

In the past, in the discord group, he ended up getting ahead of himself in DISCARDING some possibilities, such as supernatural reasons, experimental drugs, among others...

I believe that, in his head, the conversation with Dahlia should either answer definitively or at least give more clues about the reasons... but at this point, I imagine that he himself does not have a definitive answer. He got lost in his own story.
MC was too popular too quick. Can be a known player sure, but cult level fanaticism with no context for the player doesn't hit right. Might have been a more manageable story if it was more centered around the school and less around the MC flying off on superstar/celebrity level trips. Can still be about harem being drawn to the MC but toned down. Don't need random one-off characters tripping and falling on to his dick every other render scene while some of the main LI haven't been heard from in a good long while.

Said it before, but BD is clearly aware of it since they're writing verbal jabs about it from the rival to the MC.

After ep 13 or 14 it really needs to be reined in.
 

hic86

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I THINK his problem is trying to justify the MC's magnetism with women and why he is "special", that cult talk about calling him "king" and all that...

In the past, in the discord group, he ended up getting ahead of himself in DISCARDING some possibilities, such as supernatural reasons, experimental drugs, among others...

I believe that, in his head, the conversation with Dahlia should either answer definitively or at least give more clues about the reasons... but at this point, I imagine that he himself does not have a definitive answer. He got lost in his own story.
He's broken his word so often about multiple aspects of the game, why choose to stick to his guns now? Just have Dahlia reveal that his father was actually an alien with some sort of pheromone alteration, and it's passed down through him. It'd get this nonsense over with and he could get his head out of his ass and get back to releasing content.

It may actually make a decent plot twist, but I'm sure he'd find a way to completely fuck that up too.
 
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