Apologies if it comes off like that. I was just trying to be clear that in this game, the MC is not you. There are a lot of porn games where the MC is designed so that the player can project themselves into the MC. Those kind of games are often without any deep story because the goal is to provide either tons of options to satisfy everyone's preference (ex: games with tons of branches because the MC is essentially just a guy where his character doesn't really matter), or without any consequence where each sub-plot is pretty much independent of one another (ex: games where MC has a story with mother, a story with older sister, a story with younger sister, a story with a neighbor, a story with sister's friend, etc but they are never together as if they don't exist in the same setting)
On the other hand, this game has specific story it wants to tell about the relationship between two (or three now with Mallory?) characters, and one of them is the MC. So in this game, you can't really project yourself to the MC because the MC actually has characteristics and personality. Thus, far less options and freedom in this game. Just like you can't avoid banging the wives (personally, I'm not big on being a cheater who bangs someone else's wife), you can't avoid MC being in love with Jaye. It's part of the story and characters.
Thank you for the detailed explanation on why I should think I am not actually assuming the role of MC in this role-playing game.
I just feel like dancing now.
I don't think I mentioned anything about projecting myself in the game in my post/question thou it might have looked like it, damn semantics, I should have worded that differently.
I just asked: "why am I in love with Jaye?"
As you were kind enough to provide a detailed explanation and I feel like dancing, I will do my best to play the game.
GAME ON!
When I start playing this game I am placed in a predetermined role of Jayes older brother. Much like any other role-playing game out there.
The author sets the starting parameters - my character is in love with his younger sister but due to some unfortunate miscommunication in early childhood, our relationship is less than ideal and pretty much nonexistent. He also informs me that, secretly, my sister is actually also in love with me. She is a bit headstrong and acts very cold and uninterested around me.
OK so far so good - I am quite ready to embark on my new role journey and explore what this game has to offer.
In a very short time, I am presented with a fast-forward. Ten years have passed for my character.
Although giving no significant signs or proof of any affection between my sister and me the author assures me that they still (secretly?) love each other.
Ok, not that I can buy it since it seems like we spent 10 (hormone raging teenage) years in total limbo but the author doesn't give me any other choice so - I have to buy it to continue playing.
Suddenly shit starts to get real.
My sister has a guy in her room, some douche or a prick she has been seeing recently but I (semantics - MC, my character) feel he is unworthy of her and I get consumed by some conflicting feelings.
OK, yeah, she is family, after all, her choice of consort is questionable and I have reason to be worried about her, lets roll with that.
Upon discovering the prick tried to rape her I get very angry. OK, fits the role of a concerned older brother.
There is a showdown and I pummel the prick into the ground. Go me, phew what an adrenaline rush.
But wait... sister is not happy, she throws a raging hissy fit like I just killed the love of her life!
Noooo, what have I done?
Completely broken by guilt and remorse of hurting my beloved little sister I pack my bags to start a new life away from her because she never wants to see me again.
The author says I'm a moron since my sister obviously loves me more than life itself. But how should I know that, her hate was oozing out of every pore of her being and her face was horrific and scary, don't mess with me!
Wtf author - you won't give me a chance to talk to her or give her the chance to talk to me?
This game is rigged, Mr. author you are a cock-blocking asshole!!!!!
What an emotional rollercoaster, I almost shed a tear.
Ah, well, damn role-playing games you can't do much but play the role you are given.
Now its time to start over, good for me, my character is finally getting out of that toxic family interaction with his sister and is ready to start enjoying life's simple pleasures.
Time to bury deep all that sorrow and embark on a 5-year journey to find myself so I go around the world, meet new people, friends, and lovers and I am kinda feeling ok?
Alas, my alleged (Autor again reminds me that I am dying inside because I cannot get over my undying love for my sister, damn spoilsport what do you want now?) happiness was short-lived.
I get a call from sis (although she blocked my phone number 5 years ago...) that our parents died in an accident.
Heartbroken I return home just to be met with my ice-cold sis... if looks could kill I would be 6ft under already!
The author tries his best to paint sis as a raving lunatic consumed with rage and jealousy and he does good work there. But hey, author!!! That's not cool - my mission is to reconnect with my long lost love, how can I do it if you won't give us a chance huh?
I almost chuckled when sis called me Captain Starfucker, that was kinda funny, I feel I should really reconnect with sis (the right thing to do, right? Right?) but this meddling idiot of an author is again throwing stones under my feet - he again turns my beloved sis into a raving lunatic thirsty for blood and vengeance. Why, why, what did I do now FFS?
The author again slaps me with a bunch of unavoidable chains of events and I just feel like I lost the game.
Are role-playing games supposed to be this hard to play?
I am telling you this game is rigged, you just cannot win!!!!
Feeling kinda defeated after the last levels of hell the author put my character through I start questioning myself, why the hell am I in love with my sis when this meddling moron won't even give me a teeny weeny chance to do my "quest" properly!
Oh, there is a light at the end of the tunnel!
We are going to spend a month together on a yacht somewhere exotic - surely this will be the time I could make my move and finish the quest!
But wait... sis is bringing a +1!!!! Author!!! You meddling cunt, what did you do now?
Noooo, it's the douche in the helicopter!
Of all the fucking Mexican soap opera plots he has to pick that one, I just cannot believe it.
To be continued... (more drama, bloodshed, violence, and mayhem in the next chapter)
Yo momma too, I'll get you for this I swear!
Yeah, kinda run out of steam and cynicism at the end but think I got the gist of it so far. What do you think?
Oh, and yeah, the game is definitely rigged, you just cannot win.
