Can I tell you a true story
ChainZero?
I'm a creative writer, and several years ago I was approached by a start-up (now defunct) pop-culture website to write content for them, this ranged the gamut from movie reviews, to lists, to roundtable discussions of geek culture, to original fiction. I agreed and submitted several articles over the course of about six months and quite enjoyed the behind-the-scenes editorial atmosphere of such an endeavour.
Actually, let me start over again, I became a creative writer
BECAUSE they approached me to write content for them. I never had aspirations towards that field of work, but apparently they liked my sense and sensibilities on a then popular LOST discussion board enough to ask me to collaborate with them.
At some point I noticed that one of the site's creators -a self professed professional writer- had only submitted a single article in all that time. One night we were chatting (I think it was Yahoochat) and I asked him about it. He said he was never satisfied by the quality of his work and didn't feel it was up to standards of other contributors, including me. He said he was constantly revising and second-guessing his own work because he didn't want to disappoint the rest of us and our reader-base. He was basically blocking himself from finding an audience because he didn't feel that what he produced was good enough to share with the world.
I asked him why he started the site in the first place and he said something about "Because we have a really great group of creative people here and if we all work together we can really leave a mark on this world blablabla mumblejumble whitenoise (I wasn't really paying attention).
So I told him "Ask me why I write?
"I dunno, why do you write?"
"Because you guys asked me to?" And I said, "never had any ambition to write, but sure, why not?"
And so I wrote about a dozen or more articles, never once wondering "Is this good enough?". I just wrote them and send them to whomever volunteered to edit that given month. And they all ended up on that now defunct website, buried so deep on the internet I can't even find them anymore. That guy though, never had more than one article published.
Point is, stop second-guessing yourself, stop over-analysing yourself and if you feel the need for an editor, get someone else to look at it instead of yourself. The person most critical of you is often you. And sometimes, that can put a real damper on your creativity.
I've made a few comments in this thread before, so you know I love your game. It's in my signature, and that's no mean feat. I
LOVE the story so far the way it is. Don't go back and nitpick over every little detail, bro! Just pick the fucking story you want to tell and TELL IT! And I'll be there the rest of the way.