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Friend, it was a yes or no question, how did this all turn into text? :-:
Friend, it was just a yes or no question, how did it turn into two paragraphs of text? :-:Sometimes I just have a lot to say. The clearer one's picture of the world is the more words it can take to describe it at times. That said, I'm facing two problems here: one, the general mundanity of posts here (can DeSkel break outta here and make some kind of blog elsewhere as the certified "Most Based Nodoka Poster Alive?"), and two, the realization that indeed F95 is associated with piracy. I don't usually pirate things and just came here for an alternative source of LiL discussion, but the realization that one's presence here is taken as some kind of "gotcha" in a never-ending metagame to purge the discord of pirates is deeply unpleasant. Not that I am hugely against piracy (as LiL itself says at some point, "fuck ethics," and I hardly hold anyone to following the categorical imperative) but I'm posting here specifically to avoid the choking context of the discord. Selebus posting on a sockpuppet account here and monitoring everything people say is exactly what I wanted to avoid. I feel myself even now being struck by the compulsion to distort and alter my phrasing of things to avoid his eternally-remembering eyes. That's the kind of presence Selebus is: one who derives so much meaning and has so much awareness the world bends around them. MFer remembers someone using a slightly out of the ordinary word ten months ago.
(And yeah GSwole is 100% him, even putting aside the fact he's outright saying that recently, just look at the posting history lmao; reacting with laughing emoji every time people ask for a save, subtly correcting people who are wrong about something he is invested in, making prescient comments about certain things like Io getting dicked... IDK what compelled him to come out of the shadows and post more normally but it's somewhat disconcerting seeing the fake lowercase he initially posted with. What does it mean for someone to have so many models within themselves they can reproduce at will, just as they write all their true-to-life characters? Which is the "real" him? One could say at that point perspective becomes a choice rather than a natural state of being, perhaps; it's not like writing ""Pareidolia"" didn't give him experience here. I know my writing style is distinctive but I keep to it anyway for that reason, and don't enjoy outside sources providing incentives to change.)
He actually turned the answer into 2 paragraphs :-:Waiting to see how the answer "no" gets expanded to seven paragraphs.