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Back from the Dead 2: Electric Boogaloo
I don't know what title to write with this update but Hey! It's been quite a while. I know you guys must be curious about what's been going on, so let me break it down into two parts, my life and just the game.
LIFE UPDATE:
The last time I dropped in here, I was still finishing my architectural thesis. That month was pure stress. I'd love to show you pics of my architectural model if it wasn't on my personal portfolio. Long story short, it was an International Airport inspired by Zaha Hadid and Bjarke Ingels. Did you know International Airports are WIDE and HUGE? Yeah, that project burnt me out like a motherfucker, not only that, but the scale models, the visual boards, the presentation, and the research paper with all the data. I can't say it was worth it but the final result was pretty much a
chef's kiss. Got a pretty good grade for all that.
My original plan was (foreshadowing) to bum around New York and intern with BIG, Bjarke Ingels Group, or some other "starchitect" design firm. But oh boy, did I do a stupid fucking thing, I got my GF pregnant. Then I did the second stupidest thing which was to run away for 3-4 months. Yeah, don't do that, it's just cruel. Basically, a friend was asking around if anyone wanted to intern at his uncle's firm. I said no at first but changed my mind after the news. I just drove there without a plan. Like, I arrived there and forgot I had to actually stay somewhere to sleep. Ended up living for a while on that friend's parent's place. I guess the stress of having no job, a massive student debt, and committing to a family at a young age just fried my brain. I literally went off the grid on social media. I had to plead to my friend to call my parents to tell them where I was. It was a total shitshow.
Working there was probably karma, I guess? The pay was a joke and not to mention, the unpaid overtime. I'd get calls in the middle of the night for "minor revisions" because I was supposedly the "only one good at Revit" which lasted til 3AM. But what really pushed me over the edge was just the guilt. That anxiety was eating me alive daily. So, I finally decided to come back to my GF. I wasn't expecting a warm welcome with arms wide open and I sure didn't get one. I did had plates and cups thrown at me. A lot of it and I deserved each one. We eventually had a long talk and family got involved.
I wish it ended with a happy note there but after the kid was born, the stress levels ramped up to 200%. By this point, I was doing blue-collar work which was plating steel sheets and parts. Got it through a connection when I was researching stuff about building materials. I really wanted to do design-related work but what I saw paid bad and the internship still left a bad memory for me. This job paid well especially since we were still living in a college town, GF was still finishing her Nursing degree. Maybe because both of us were stressed all the time, we often get into these dumb fights for no reason. I'd go home, we'd talk about something stupid, someone gets pissed, we have a shouting match, sleep pissed off, work, and repeat the cycle tomorrow. This was around the same time last year.
Thankfully, that phase didn't last long. After she graduated earlier this year, we decided to move closer to her parents, like, just a 10-minute drive from them to help with the kid. I also wanted to quit that plating job because I was getting paranoid the fumes I constantly inhaled might give me lung cancer or something. Let me tell you, that move did wonders for our mental health. Weekends are actually relaxing now. Plus, I switched to a work-from-home setup, keeping an eye on the kid while she works. Sure, my earnings took a hit, but living in a low-cost area and her having a job now balances things out. Now that I've got free time, I slowly dived back into learning Blender, Daz, Photoshop, and Python again. And that's the roller coaster of my past couple of years. Now, on to the updates.