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First of all: My apologies for staying radio silent for so long.
While I didn't say anything I was still lurking and read through many comments and messages you all send me. Good or bad, I understand any form of reaction and I'm even more stoked about all the positive and well wishing messages I received.
To all those heartwarming messages:
Thank you, seriously, a big thanks.
I started writing a post many times but it always just felt like a bunch of empty words. I didn't know what to say and if I'm honest, I still don't.
I decided to face the truth that I wasn't just struggling with my private life, rather was mentally broken and needed help. I wasn't able to process the events that happened. I was depressed. And to anyone who just rolled their eyes: I can totally relate to you... because that's what I thought myself.
To me Depression wasn't real, it's just someone being way too self-pitying or attention seeking. And while I can't speak for every case (can't deny that some people out there are just faking it). Being depressed is hard to notice and admitting that you have a problem takes a lot of strength. For a long time I woke up and felt nothing. I didn't care about my surroundings and whatever I did. It wasn't until I spoke to the right people many many times that I realized to value your own mental health.
Being sad and feeling low isn't anything crazy, having those bad days is normal. But if it sticks around for too long one should really look into what's going on. If something big or major went wrong (which is quite subjective), the last thing you should do is to ignore it and keep yourself occupied/just not think about it.
Trust me, it won't just go away, it sticks around until you can't tell why you are feeling so miserable. But before we make this post way too serious let's just sum it up:
I learned to value my mental health and so should everyone else. Your brain can have severe injuries you can't see nor directly feel but it needs time to heal, and sometimes it needs help from others. You don't break your arm and go about your day, no, you get medical help.
With that being said, all I can leave you with is this:
[download links, use the ones in the OP]
Plenty of posts will follow, I hope you enjoy LaS 0.08.
Cheers, Veq.
P.S.: A big shout out to the one McFly, helping me through the hard times.