Ok, then I didn't remember that part correctly. Pretending to cum seems a pretty dumb choice to me, so I didn't even consider MC did that. I was sure he came for real, which was surprising, seeing how he kept going if he didn't stop her.
You didn't understand my metaphore. I'm not comparing sex to a suicide. I'm saying killing yourself to not let another person kill you is a metaphore to cumming and swallowing a condom (which I thought was full) in order not to have sex with the woman you don't want to (let's imagine it's not your MC, but my MC who doesn't want).
Look, I'm sorry if you're getting offended for some reason, I was just making my point.