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So after posting the Dev Report, I said I was gonna talk about something else that I felt was important enough for a separate post. This is that post. I just wanted to take some time to make sure I have all my thoughts in order. And as I said, it's not game development related.
Before I released Connected I was talking about some of the goals I had but I deleted those posts when I posted the first version of the game. This is just me getting my goals out there to the new followers and stuff.
So, I'm a pretty good artist. I've been drawing for as long as I could hold a pencil and I basically taught myself everything I know now and I've always been the top student in art classes in school. I've always enjoyed drawing. Problem is, I stopped drawing right around late middle school - early high school, right around the time I really began to understand just how toxic of a home life I had and I never really managed to regain that love and drive despite
wanting to draw so badly. If I have any regret, it's that I couldn't bring myself to continue doing what I loved.
I think my current skill level can be best classified as being able to
draw but not being able to
sketch. I have a great eye for detail so if you were to ask me to take an image and draw it, I can do it, almost perfectly. The problem is I've never been able to look at a reference image and sketch something completely original without flat out copying from the reference.
This is why I've been heavily considering and researching art schools to see if I can get what I want from one of them. I've bought art books and stuff to learn for myself, but it's hard to be here trying to find the motivation to open the book and get to work when I have nothing but negative influences around me. That's why I'd like a legitimate place of education to give me a positive space to get that focus and discipline back.
I say all this because 3D art was actually never something I wanted to pursue until fairly recently. Tora Productions were the ones who inspired me to do 3D art and game creation about 4 or 5 years ago, ever since Dreaming of Elsa, but I've
always wanted to draw. If I had the skill to do so, Connected would have been a full 2D game or 2D comic right now. Not a 3D game.
To me, 3D art is great and visually stunning when handled right, but it's not forever. It's not unique. It's not completely your own. Not Daz3D at least. And a game like Connected I feel is defined by being unique. I personally have all these ideas and thoughts that run through my mind when thinking of Connected and honestly more than half of those ideas tend to fall way short because Daz3D is very limiting. When you draw, you're able to let your mind run free on the canvas. Certain issues I have in Daz I wouldn't have if I could draw them myself. Like right now, with this whole height issue I addressed in the recent Dev Report. That's why I so very much want to continue to improve my art again.
If possible, in the future, possibly when the game of Connected is all said and done, I'd like to be able to draw my characters and continue their stories in various sexy comics. I'd love to do that. I look at what Melkor Mancin, a great erotic comic artist does with his characters in his "Melkorverse". I look at various hentai artists, "pornhwa" artists and
that's what I truly want to do. I love 3D art and I've grown to be very addicted to Daz Studio, so I don't think I'll ever really leave the app alone, but I'm 23 years old. I personally don't see myself working with Daz Studio into my 30s, 40s, 50s assuming I'm fortunate enough to experience those later years of life, cause you know, it feels like we're constantly being reminded about how unpredictable this bitch called life is. January's tragedy was proof enough. If you know, you know.
Anyway, that's my future goal. To have the art form I grew up with hopefully carry me for the rest of my years. Drawing is where I've always been truly happy. I'm probably making it sound more poetic and dramatic than it needs to be, but it's true. This is nice, this is great and I've really put time into learning Daz to deliver you guys great quality 3D art with the tools given to me. But in the future, I hope to deliver great 2D art of
my own talent and hard work.
I have no regrets delivering the story of Connected in 3D form so far though. I do love the app and what can be done with it and I don't think the designs of Ayana, Charlotte, Michelle, Vanessa, and Nikki could have been thought up if not for Daz3D, so I'm forever grateful for that. But I would definitely tell you guys to look forward to the future because if I am given the power and opportunity, I definitely want to spend the next however many years drawing these beautiful girls and putting them in the sexiest of situations. This game is a stepping stone to open the door for that to happen.
So hopefully sometime in the near future, I end up in a place of education again where I can improve on the one thing I truly love to do. If not that then at least find a space where I can improve on things myself. But until then, all my attention is set on making this game great for you guys.