About Elspeth, the pacifist facade is her wall, I kind of understand because when I was younger I also liked to fight, it was fun, I watched the Pride fights, my cousin always got vhs tapes of the fights in Japan (I'm Brazilian, and many Brazilians fought there at the time).
I liked to fight with my cousins and my friends, until I hurt my brother, I think I blocked part of the memory, but if I'm not mistaken with a kick I "punctured" one of his kidneys, he had to have surgery, even before I had already broken his arm on another occasion, but this time it was more serious, my family was all worried, and from then on everyone started to look at me differently, they started to judge me in a bad way, they called me names that I dont 'want to say.
So I just stopped, I became repressed, I stopped fighting, over time I stopped going out with these friends, I stopped watching fights, my relationship with my brother was never the same, since then I started to hate him, thinking about it now I see it's silly of me, but that's how I acted, and even today I consider myself someone with anger issues, but who suppresses it, I had to put up with a lot of shit from a lot of people, until I couldn't take it anymore, lost my temper and acted violently again, and in the end I always blame it on my "anger issues."
So looking at Elspeth, and reading some of the comments here, I see part of myself in Elspeth, someone who likes to fight, but who hurt people close to her, lost people and had to put on a facade to be accepted.