UPDATE: Frustration, Stress, Worry and Apologies… - August 26, 2019
(as posted on our Patreon Page)
PLEASE… READ THIS TO IT’S CONCLUSION, AS THERE IS AN IMPORTANT CHOICE FOR YOU TO MAKE AT THE END OF THIS!!!
Have you ever had a time in your life, that you seem to be going nowhere and all that you are doing is barely holding on? That precise moment when it seems that life is only interested in repeatedly kicking you in the nutsack whenever you try to make any kind of headway?
If you haven’t, my dear friends, take it from me, consider yourself fortunate.
I… not-so-much.
Lately, my entire freaking existence these past few months seem to be an endless number of apologies from me to you as I feverishly toil and work on this damn chapter and try to hit one deadline, after the next that I set for myself to get this game into your hands.
While it looks great, according to the testers and people who’ve sampled it to make sure that I am doing it right, this stupid thing is
HUGE!!
TOO HUGE!!
In reality and perspective, it would be like me trying to release
Chapter Four, parts 1-5 of “
Wicked Choices: Book One” to in
ONE MONTH… but also with animation as well.
Honestly, I don’t know what I was thinking by trying this… except I wanted to give to you the very best that I could give, something to
WOW you with, something that might surprise and encourage others to give us a shot and become our patrons… and all I seem to be doing is working my ass off, day after day and apologizing from one week to the next as I scramble to get this thing freaking
DONE!
I entertained the idea of providing to all of you what we have done thus far (which is a
CRAPLOAD), but releasing it half-assed and unfinished would take away from the experience I wanted to give to you by doing this…
…I am exhausted, tired, frustrated… and I am sick to death of only apologizing to you week after freaking week.
AND… and, just when I think that
LIFE couldn’t get any suckier for me…
LIFE pulls back her foot and delivers another wonderful kick… right into the testicles!!
Case in
POINT…
Returning home from work on Friday the 16th, the wife comes home and tells me that she thinks she needs to go to the hospital… that her female parts were bleeding a lot.
So, I save what I am working on, put the computer in sleep mode and spend the next 9 hours with her in the emergency room… when all of the tests are completed, we get the news we didn’t expect and, honestly, needed several days to kind of digest…
…that during the ultrasound, they discovered that there was a large “mass” in the left adnexal region abutting the left aspect of the uterus measuring at least 8x6x6 cm in size…
I am the one in the family that is
FUBAR… disabled, broken, falling apart from degenerative spinal disease… my wife has been my
ROCK, the one who cares for me after every damn surgery that the doctors perform to make sure that I can keep walking, talking and breathing… the person, with whom I love
MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF is in
TROUBLE and I’ve never been more scared in my
ENTIRE FREAKING LIFE!!!!
Those who are my brothers-in-arms, here, know that I’ve faced some screwed up stuff overseas… that I’ve done and seen things that would truly frighten any man… but
NEVER IN MY LIFE, even when I thought that I might’ve had prostate cancer last year, have I
EVER been as frightened as I was when we got that news and as I am right now!
Me… I know, even when we thought that I might’ve had cancer, that the disease that I have will have me going the way of the dinosaur ‘before my time’… as callous as it may sound, I am good with that, prepared for it… been anticipating it happening, as has the wife… but
NEVER ever, ever,
EVER considered a scenario that would possibly have my wife leave before me!
It was an incalculable equation that I never considered or thought possible.
But… here we are.
So, the past week, we’ve been seeing a lot of doctors and she’s been undergoing a lot of tests and she is scheduled for an MRI and CT Scan on this Thursday. The blood panels that her OBGYN ran, specifically for cancer,
THANKFULLY has come back mostly normal with only a slight elevation on one of the markers… we will know more on Friday, after her scans and have heard back from the doctor…
I am
NOT telling all of you this as an
EXCUSE… I am
STILL working on the game, both
Sierra3 and
Epadder can attest to the fact that I am… right now, as freaking frustrated as I am with this damn chapter, it is perhaps the only thing right now that is keeping me somewhat sane and hovering over my wife, nervously wringing my hands in fear and worry, when she gets home from work.
NOR am I telling you this as a
SOB STORY to ask for handouts… the wife has a
GOOD job, with time saved up and when it comes time to remove whatever the frack this is from her, our insurance will cover it and her job will keep some money coming into the household.
THE REASON, I AM TELLING YOU THIS IS… because you have a
CHOICE…
“
Chapter Two” of the prologue to
AoaCB WILL be coming out… but it won’t likely be till sometime in September at least… it is
NOW August 26, 2019 and soon Patreon is going to start
CHARGING all of you for the next month…
I am not going to
LIE… I count on the money that I make here and so does
Epadder and
Sierra3, so pausing the support here, while I am still working on this game and all of this crap is going on is
NOT an option for me…
SO, I am going to leave it up to
YOU if you wish to remain a supporter of ours!!
IF you wish to leave, I will understand and
NO HARD FEELINGS!!
I
PROMISE YOU that I will deliver “
Chapter Two” to
EVERYONE who has been supporting us these past few months since the release of “
Chapter One” so you will
STILL get the next chapter even if you wish to cancel your pledge… I made a
PROMISE to you that I would deliver it and I
WILL keep that promise!!!!
For those that choose to stay with us, I
SINCERELY appreciate it and, again, apologize for constantly seeming to beg your forgiveness for what seems like forever now… I appreciate you and your continued support and we won’t let you down and will keep grinding away on this story till its conclusion and beyond (God willing).
Thank you everyone and I,
PLEASE, ask that you keep my wife in your thoughts, prayers or send positive vibes… she and I can use them right now.
Time for me to get back to work…
~Jack