Wait... this is on hold? what happened?
Ayhsel, yeah sadly I had to back off on the game some due to my health, at least till I can find and secure an artist.
to many ideas and story games instead of tryfinish this one story! and that one about fallout?? really??...bah
While I don't need to justify myself and my decision to you or anyone else, I am going to be clear and straight with you.
I have degenerative disc and spine disease; it is a disease that normally affects people in their 60's... I developed it in my 30's.
This is in part because my own body attacks the calcium in my bones, breaks them down and makes the bones soft and brittle... as a result of this, I no longer have my original teeth, I have dentures and I have to undergo multiple surgeries and have titanium and cadaver bones put inside of me in order to continue to walk or even hold my head up... and, this disease will see me, at some point in this life filled with pain, in a wheelchair and either paralyzed or quadriplegic... IF it doesn't kill me first.
There is a REASON why I am considered legally DISABLED and listed as unable to work... BUT I STILL TRY so that MY WIFE doesn't have to take care of my ugly ass and keep the both of us fed all by herself.
THAT is what this game IS... a means to try and make money to inject into our household and with me TRYING to take some pressure and stress off my wife.
It is CLEAR that requiring MAJOR back surgeries TWO YEARS IN A ROLL that I am NO LONGER able to spend 40-80 hours a week crafting a game that only brings in, at most, $1200 a month that gets divided up among three people. My surgical bills cost way more than that!
If I CAN'T spend the time NEEDED to produce the game, I NEED to find a way that I CAN... not just to SATISFY the players of that game... but also try to KEEP needed money coming into the household.
If I CAN'T spend the NEED time at the computer to do the ARTWORK that is NEEDED, then I NEED to hire an artist that can so that I can get back on track with the game and story that you all want... but a PIDILY $700 a month ISN'T going to cut it... so I had to figure SOMETHING ELSE OUT...
Creating a mod for
Fallout 4 and the upcoming
Starfield game seemed a GOOD CHOICE to still produce something in the
Wicked Choices Universe that didn't require me spending long hours in front of a computer... I can write and do storyline while I am confined in BED, in an EASY CHAIR or in a HOSPITAL ROOM... but I CAN'T render from those places.
Plus, producing a product that can be more MAINSTREAM, means I can reach MORE people who might be willing to SUPPORT ME and the PEOPLE WORKING WITH ME and ENABLE me to hire an ARTIST so that I can get back on track and finish the games here... and still keep money coming into the household!
YOU don't THINK I care about the game?
The GAME is what helps me make MONEY to keep a roof over mine and my wife's head so that she isn't doing it ALL herself!
It is MY way of trying to TAKE PRESSURE and STRESS off of her and MAYBE provide something that can CONTINUE to do so when I am NO LONGER AROUND!
So, keep that in MIND the next time you want to throw a 'BAH' my way, because while it just may be a GAME to YOU, but to ME it is the ONLY FUCKING THING that I am able to DO right now to try and take care of my WIFE, which is WAY more IMPORTANT to ME than YOU'LL ever be.