VN Ren'Py WVM [S2 Ch. 1 Ep. 13 B3] [Braindrop]

[Kassan06969]

Why TF would anyone want anything that's censored?

 

[ImperialD]

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Sup guys.
I just felt like typing some shit out. I know I said the next thoughts post would be on the 2nd but I'm feeling a certain type of way and I just know what I have to do even if you guys won't like it.

It's no secret that shit has been fucked for a while.
It all starts and stops with me, and I've been on quite the self destructive journey lately.
Things kept clashing together in the worst ways at the worst times and I let myself slowly fall into this mental block.
I can't describe the mental side of this shit. All I can say is that putting the actual update out is simultaneously something that I know has to be done and I want to do, and is also something that I dread having to do.
The pressure, the expectations, the finality of it all.
It's all self imposed issues. I know that, I'm not trying to deny it.

It's almost been a year since the last actual update. A fucking year.
There's so much work done but none of it has been shown and it's the most frustrating thing. I hate this, I hate feeling incapable.
The obvious question is "What's stopping you from releasing it?"
And I don't have a good answer. Anytime I sit down and package it and think about calling it done, I get this deep guttural feeling of dread. I'm so fucking mentally blocked up and I don't know why.
I fucking wish I did.
It's not something I think about once and then put off for a month. It is all day every single day.
But I've been doing everything I can to get away from it. To try and put it off but it's impossible.
My wife mentioned to me about how she thinks I'm worried to call it quits on it because then everything that has happened this year is over. It means I'm over it and it shouldn't.
There's so fucking much that I haven't told you guys about shit that has happened because I hate sounding like a fucking excuse robot. There's been so many times where I've typed out these long rant posts just to ctrl+w at the end. (Don't try that command unless you're tired of reading this btw)
Working on WVM has always been an escape for me... and something about stopping the work that I was doing when all of these things happened feels like I'm closing away that part of my life... I think.
Does it really make sense? No, but it just... it is what it is I don't know what else to say.
I've been stuck and I want out. I need out.
And that brings me to this next part.

I made the DITLO with Harper and I had a fucking blast making it. It was fun to write... hell it was even fun to edit the images (Which is usually the biggest bore for me).
And... it was even fun to release.
Sure, it may not be what you guys really wanted right now. Sure, it may suck that she was censored in it. I get it, but that's not what really matters.
It was the first time in nearly a year that I felt good about releasing something.
Like really good, I feel great right now which is insane.

There's many reasons for that but the important bit for this is that it made me realize what I need to do.
I've asked about it before and you guys overwhelmingly said to hold off and release the update in full all at once.
And I do agree that that way would be the best for the game and the best overall experience... but I can't. Trust me, I want to... but I can't.
The simplest way I can put it is that there's too much instant finality to it. I put a piece of me into every part of this game and I think it makes it a good game but it also makes situations like these... really hard to let go of.
When it's over... life goes back to normal. And that scares the fuck out of me right now.
But it has to be over.

Part of me says that I should just rip the band aid off but I'm legitimately scared of things going poorly and me ending up in an even worst spot.
There's so much emotionally put into this update... it's fucking rough man.

I've always enjoyed small consistent releases... mostly. I get the most short term enjoyment from them but I don't feel like they're what's best for the game in a developmental aspect. And I've become incapable of the consistent part anyway.
So... instead of ripping the band aid off I'm going to slowly peel and chew at the bastard until it's gone.
I'm going to sit down and parse the update out in chunks that make sense to me and I'm going to release those chunks.
I'm going to allow myself to work on some of the scenes again... there are a few that I genuinely think I can improve rather easily and quickly. I'm not going to let myself go into perfectionist mode... and that's not what this has been about. I don't think anyway.

I can do it in chunks... I'm not going to pretend like I won't be stressed or be bogged down by that dread feeling... but I can manage it.
It has to get done.
I really tried to do it the way that most of you wanted it to be... I did.
I still want to do it that way but I simply can't I'm sorry.

I'm going to hold off on the character sheets and bday renders that were planned and focus on getting the update chunked out before releasing those.

And ultimately if you want to wait for all of it to be out then you're free to do so.
I just know that this is the only way for me to get out of this block I'm in right now.
I thought letting enough time pass would let me heal enough but the pressure of the update is really slowing that stuff down.

I do apologize for going this route after asking how you guys wanted it.
It's out of necessity though and I hope you understand.

I'll have info about update sizes and dates soon.
Thanks for caring enough to read my brain vomit.
Love you guys and talk to you soon.

(Oh and each release for this will be available to all patrons and former patrons (Through discord))

thanks for letting us all know this

 

[Alex Lem]

Why the hell is Ethan sleeping in a hood and with a creepy-censored face? And why are all Harper's private parts also censored? It looks stupid and it doesn't make any sense, I understand that in this game we will never see the MC's face, but sleeping in a hood? BD what's wrong with you man Why censor Harper? In the same update in which we see a naked Rachel with a much larger arsenal, I am sure that what we will see under Harper's clothes is the same as that of absolutely any other woman, I really don't know what's the point of this

 

[Krynh]

No way would they do that. Quick math he makes almost 300k a year (at an avg of 7 a patron). The average developer only makes about 65k and has to do about 5 times the work.

I think your sums are a bit off. at $7 for 321. That's 21k a month and 144 a year.

 

[FreshRevenge]

Honestly that felt real to me. While most wouldn't admit it publicly, a lot of parents have had that thought cross their mind at least once when going through extremely tough times. Yeah, most don't actually say it, but it seems Harper and Natalie are open and honest with each other. Natalie also knows that her mom wouldn't change anything and is just going through a tough time.

My issue of it is that for whatever reason, Harper is having a mental breakdown or midlife crisis. I think it correlates with what BrainDrop is going through at the moment. I believe it's drama that doesn't need to be there.

Whether she felt that way, it felt out of character for her to blurt out that I was just thinking about never having you. Natalie response is so accepting, and I call BS on that. I am surprise Natalie didn't storm out with that comment. So, it does come off as being unrealistic to me.

 

[Bacara]

Why the hell is Ethan sleeping in a hood and with a creepy-censored face? And why are all Harper's private parts also censored? It looks stupid and it doesn't make any sense, I understand that in this game we will never see the MC's face, but sleeping in a hood? BD what's wrong with you man Why censor Harper? In the same update in which we see a naked Rachel with a much larger arsenal, I am sure that what we will see under Harper's clothes is the same as that of absolutely any other woman, I really don't know what's the point of this

It just confirms to me that Harper will never be lewded.

 

[rlduck]

Ya know, even a mini game I was excited to see at least SOMETHING about this game come out, I really enjoy his story and I've invested a a lot of time running through the game multiple times. I don't mind this look into Harper because with all the girls in this game she is one of if not the main one that just does it for me, I love everything about her and I'm hoping that the MC gets her too but I doubt it seeing this.

Why in the world would you censor her? You are looking in to her side of the story and pretty much playing her, why not show one of the hottest models you have and give us something. I kind of knew from when it skipped the shower scene we were going to get screwed lol. Oh well a man can dream I guess.

 

[barkouletos]

This game is unique! Confusing story and so many girls that you forget their names, but is has huge content, good art, all girls are avaiable (open relationship) and there are many types of girls!

 

[brankom]

Happy to finally see an update... reading minigame... I'm out.

 

[Fattishman]

what is DITLO?

"day in the life of". An episode entirely focused on one subject and showing his/her life

 

[Alex Lem]

It just confirms to me that Harper will never be lewded.

The only reasonable reason for me is if she has nazi tattoos on her nipples and pussy . Censoring a girl in a porn game where we have already seen hundreds of pussies and tits is madness. And Ethan with a hood and a censored face looks very strange and stupid, could it have been any other way not to show his face? And is it really so difficult for BD to show at least Ethan's hair?

 

[Amahl Farouk]

I was about to write a miffed response to the mini harper release then read the creator's text

Release it any way you want, in whatever form you want, whatever best suits you

Life is too short to get stressed out like this

Big respect, and kind thoughts going your way!

 

[csmk14]

Just screenshot the Patreon recipes for the last few months and you see it easy if he did pause them or not right?

Spoiler: My billing history for 2022

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I am sure you will find some other make believe thing to complain about, but here is my 2022 billing history, and as you can see I was not charged for May or January as BD said. Now if this is not enough, NOTHING I say or show you will be, and you just want to Troll

 

[h0Ws?!]

Thanks for the update, I have played it 5 times and it never gets boring

 

[riverrungames]

As mental health awareness month is drawing to a close, Braindrop is committed to addressing the stigma around mental health and treatment in the day of the life of our characters. Take care of yourselves.

 

[Alex Lem]

Spoiler: My billing history for 2022

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I am sure you will find some other make believe thing to complain about, but here is my 2022 billing history, and as you can see I was not charged for May or January as BD said. Now if this is not enough, NOTHING I say or show you will be and you just want to Troll

It doesn't matter, what matters is that there are absolutely stupid reasons that prevent him from releasing an update, which, according to him, has been ready for a long time and has more than 2 thousand renderers

 

[Lucifer290]

This dude planning to make weekly updates with around 80-100 renders each, and planning to add new game day every month, shit, thats a lot of work, idk if he'll last long with this development plan. When i thinking about it, in my mind goes couple of devs, who couldnt provide 1 update in almost 1 year.

he can t he say taht 1 year ago and coulnd do only for 2 months i think betwen the day 6 and 7 but i realy like this game and how he manage to make it perfect its me second place after being a dik and third its city of broken dreams ...

 

[asianboi]

It feels like you are waiting for a pizza and the chef said, "It's going to be done in 20 minutes."
Twenty minutes later, he said, "It's going to take another 10 minutes."
After 30 minutes, he gave you a bread stick. He told you, "It's from the same dough."
Then he tells you that he'll give you the pizza, but it'll be in pieces.
It's nice... but you know at least he was honest...

so i hope you get better and keep up the good work

sorry for my bad english

 

[coolguy146]

how do i play the minigame?

 

[Deleted member 4374281]

So...considering the Harper mini story, and then the knowledge that we'll get an actual game update sometime soon?

I was playing The Cabin today and saw this...



And I laughed. Whatever kind of horror type murder elements happen in this game...it's forever going to be my headcanon that this is Harper's true backstory in WVM.