PhazeUFO

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Are you dense? Calm down and pay attention.
You were saying DB posted here (we all know that) related to him not being active here because his reasons, right? I just quoted your post saying that I doubt the real reason was that. That has nothing to do with you and no one is putting words in your mouth.
I was not denying that it could have been a lie. I stated that I can neither confirm nor deny. However, you were not direct and then refused to explicitly state this when I mentioned it. You bolded a part of my post, but that looks more like you are attacking my claim rather than his.
 

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This is a really good point of course and yeah maybe you are right! Ultimately we'll never know but I don't really buy it myself... if that was true and he was rendering his balls off and had everything ready to go, but tweeked something here and something there... how did 2k turn into 200 renders? He said that he had to rework a locker scene or something, how does that invalidate 2k ready-to-go renders which I assume also includes a few hours worth of gameplay and code?



Yep that would be a stretch! And definitely not what I'm suggesting. What I am suggesting is that he was, say, 50% of the way towards his target, and prematurely annouced the big update before it was ready (to generate hype and money) with the intention of delivering, of course. This would also tie in nicely with the ADHD... Then, oh crap, something happened and he can't deliver on the announcement but he also can't take it back... so another excuse is needed, and then another, and another.

And here we are.
That's exactly my point. We won't ever know for sure what happened because we don't have access to his computer. So I can think of a few reasons why he can be saying the truth (I made a couple of posts the other day explaining how I was in a somewhat similar situation with a project I was working on, and how those minor tweaks ended up destroying the whole thing to a point it couldn't be even launched despite being working perfectly before), and you can only think of the milking reason. Of course you are free to think that but just be aware that, if for some reason, I'm right, your attitude is really hurtful. So, even if I can not disregard the milking thing at all, I choose to be cautious about it because, in the end, all you can win with this is bragging rights for calling someone out first -which isn't really a big prize- but if I'm right we are talking about a real person's mental health. And that is a serious thing.
 

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I was not denying that it could have been a lie. I stated that I can neither confirm nor deny. However, you were not direct and then refused to explicitly state this when I mentioned it. You bolded a part of my post, but that looks more like you are attacking my claim rather than his.
That's the part you misunderstood. I was not attacking your claim, not even close. I'm sorry if that's how you felt. Your post just popped and I've said what I believe about his post. Nothing more.
 
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how did 2k turn into 200 renders?
BD said he had 2000+ renders, but due to the reworks changed timeline, and his self-doubt they all underwent his adjustments and rearranging that resulted in more rework, additional renders, and stuff.
He then aimed for instead of releasing a multiple k render update, to do this in chunks, like 3-4 chunks of 700 each. The first chunk got split in those 2-3 small update bits in June with 200-300 renders each.

So, if you believe him, there are still 2000+ renders, but due to everything going on in a less ready state than when he started to readjust them and could be released in chunks of several hundred renders when refitted again, resulting in a potentially pretty steady stream of updates over the next weeks/months.

Depending on how many new renders he might be able to produce besides that or not, it might be difficult to identify them as legitly produced that long ago or created along the way now to cover up though. So even with releasing everything now, in the end, it will come down to how much benefit of the doubt everyone is willing to give him.
 

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Of course you are free to think that but just be aware that, if for some reason, I'm right, your attitude is really hurtful.
This is a really good point and to that end I retract my previous statement.

I don't think its right to not be able to challenge BD's statements simply because it could be hurtful if you're wrong, but.... like most people I'm kind of exhausting my ability to care at this point. In the end I guess it doesn't matter if he was telling the truth or not. So I'll shut up about it lol

So, if you believe him, there are still 2000+ renders, but due to everything going on in a less ready state than when he started to readjust them and could be released in chunks of several hundred renders when refitted again, resulting in a potentially pretty steady stream of updates over the next weeks/months.
Whatever happened, moving forward he needs to rethink his work ethic/strategy. I don't think he can continue this game of "its ready, no its not, its ready, no its not". And you say that there could be a "potentially pretty steady stream of updates over the next weeks/months" yeah I'll hold my comments on this too... lol.
 
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And you say that there could be a "potentially pretty steady stream of updates over the next weeks/months" yeah I'll hold my comments on this too... lol.
I tried to summarize what we were told as neutrally as possible.

Like I wrote before, for now, I think he didn't lie but got himself into shit because of his mental health and some 'suboptimal' decisions.
When he first announced he had the first 200 renders refitted and thought that was a strategy to go forward, I hoped he got himself back on his feet and might start that stream of updates.
With the latest shared posts, that might or might not be the case.
And like I also said before, while I think he is honest in his posts, and I do sympathize with him and was willing to keep supporting him while he was battling his issues in a kind of sick-leave, this can't be an infinite state and has to turn around at some point.
In my mind, VN developers should be able to get sick or have some vacation without having all support removed immediately.
But this is his job right now - and there is a point where you have to come back to your job - or face the consequences of not doing so. I will stop my support in case that stream of updates doesn't come.
Then, if I am right and he gets back on his feet, I will most likely at some point start supporting him again.
If not, I'll be either deeply sorry for him or deeply disappointed in him.
 

jamdan

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I believe BD when he talks about his personal issues. I think he has always overshared way too much though. This leads to a lot of toxicity around here. People either dismiss or attack him on those issues, which makes it worse for him. Sometimes it's hard to tell if his posts are game development updates or his personal blog. He has had these issues since the very beginning. He needs to have a barrier between his personal and professional life. I know BD's issues better than I know my own neighbors.

But I don't believe the stuff he says about the updates or delays. I don't think a 2k render exists. I don't think he'll release 2 updates this month. If they do exist, he needs to force himself to relase them and then take a break. Literally don't even look at the comments. Pause patreon for a month or two or three. Don't go on discord. Don't look on here. Unplug and sort out your personal issues, and in a few months come back and hopefully see people talking about how good the latest update is.

He has to break the cycle. Whether it's the cycle of personal issues or the cycle of lies. If not, he's totally screwed.
 

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That's the part you misunderstood. I was not attacking your claim, not even close. I'm sorry if that's how you felt. Your post just popped and I've said what I believe about his post. Nothing more.
I get that. I was just concerned that it was what you thought I was saying. With that misunderstanding settled, I too wonder if it was mental health issues, or just not wanting to be called out since it is much harder for devs to censor on this platform than discord/patreon.
 
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Wonder if the narrative style will change at all based on these big events in BD life.

It was a bit aimless before. Maybe it'll be a shake-up.
 
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Rindarion

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So what the odds he actually releases an update on July 1st-3rd as stated? Thread should run a betting pool at this rate.
Yeah, i call bullshit on the July 1st-3rd fantasy date. Somewhere around there he will make ANOTHER post with yet ANOTHER bullshit sobstory/excuse as to why he cant release the fucking update and his white knight defenders will just bend over and take it up the ass as they always do.
 

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I am more surprised that anyone is even surprised of another delay .. Since its been delayed for months on end

And just blame the poll for delaying it even further caus the voters again voted for longer wait times

People could have voted for a small update to come out 29th but a majority again voted for waiting even longer

But yeah it wouldnt surprise me if this game gets another set back around 2 july as its been a vicious cycle of deadline and delay and deadline and delay :ROFLMAO:
His votes are bullshit so i didn't even care, so i'm in the clear ;)
 
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What gets me is he doesn't understand why so many people are pissed off at his decisions and lack of updates. Come on dude you know full well why people are pissed off. When you promise updates time and time again and then come up with delay after delay after delay people get tired of the BS. If you need to take a break from the game to get your health right and get your heart back into the game then do it. People will understand if you are straight up with them and explain that you are stepping away for your well being for awhile. But when you continue to come out with these updates are coming out soon and then the day of the update you give an excuse for another delay that's definitely going to get old and you should understand that. I get that you have mental demons. I am battling them myself. I have had combat related PTSD for awhile now so I know how those demons work. It's hard to talk to my family about the stuff I saw in Somalia Bosnia and Afghanistan and one of my sisters is a psychiatrist. But talking to people does help. I have good days and bad days but again when I feel bad I pick up the phone and I talk to my counselor or I'll call my sisters and talk about how I feel. They can't always be there for me but just talking about it helps as much as it can. But again if you need a break just take 1 people will understand just don't lead everyone on like you have been doing it's not good for anyone.
 

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What I gathered from this: "Oh no, people are beginning to hold me accountable for the bullshit I've told them."

It seems as if in every post I see from him, he has to subtly try to gaslight, guilt trip, or outright blame everyone else for his collecting failures.

"Didn't intend to piss off so many people." - What exactly DID you intend to do, then? Are you so used to getting your way when you throw tantrums that you genuinely didn't expect this to happen over such a long period of time? There's only one person who put Braindrop into the position he's currently in: himself. This isn't the usual bullshit of F95 where a few weeks will go by since the last update and people are freaking out. This is a LONG time. Which, to be fair, if he had said back during the last update (not the DITLO trash) that it would be a long time until the next update, I could genuinely forgive him. But the fact he keeps stringing everyone along (next week, next few weeks, next month, 2k renders, this deadline, that deadline, 2 updates in June, on and on and on) just tells me it's complete bullshit, again, as per usual with him anymore. He's dangling the carrot in front of everyone, pulling it away as they get close, and now has the nerve to act surprised and upset when the people are getting angry about it. The gaslighting and manipulation is ridiculous.

"Genuinely just wanted to know how people wanted it to be done since it didn't matter to me." - What do you mean the update release method "didn't matter to you"? If it didn't matter, then where's the mythical 2k render update? If it didn't matter to you how or what was released, why not release the 2k render update, or the smaller ones before it? Oh right, they don't exist because you were busy digging more of a hole for yourself.

"I've been through a lot and have been battling some mental issues." - Yeah we know, you only talk about it literally every chance you get to remind everyone that you're attempting the biggest pity party for yourself. There's a fine line between talking about your issues and "crying wolf for attention" and you are certainly the latter.

"I carry around a lot of guilt since my best friend passed." - Wait, the best friend? I thought it was some kind of elder relative that he took care of, like a grandpa? Now suddenly it's the best friend? I'm genuinely worried for everyone else involved in his life, there's no telling when someone might "die" to be next week's excuse.

"I lowkey feel like giving up..." - LOWKEY? You take every opportunity you get to shift blame, make excuses, remind everyone just how tough it is for you, etc... This is the opposite of LOWKEY because you shove this bullshit down everyone's throat every chance you get. You can't "lowkey feel like giving up" when every post is some whiny, 16 year old on MySpace post looking to get everyone's pity and attention. Yet another manipulation tactic from him.

"...to be accused of so much really fucking kills it for me." - This line here is probably the single most important line of his post. He legitimately thinks he's the victim, he has done nothing wrong, and everyone is just OUT TO GET HIM. The reality is, people are finally holding him accountable for the lies and bullshit he keeps telling him and the manchild doesn't know how to react.

I normally don't post on this site but this used to be one of my absolute favorite games; he's making such a clown of himself, it's sad to see what this game has become and even sadder to see what Braindrop himself is still becoming. He should really rename himself to "Excusedrop" because that's just about all he does anymore anyway. At least, when he's not trying to gaslight you into thinking you did this to him or amassing the community's biggest pity party for himself.
I am fed up with his bullshit too but one thing that i feel i have to correct you on is that he DID lost his best friend to suicide (iirc) a year ago or so i think, and then his grandpa kicked the bucket earlier this year. I don't know why he never mentioned his grandpa in that pitypost but just thought you should know.
 

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I am fed up with his bullshit too but one thing that i feel i have to correct you on is that he DID lost his best friend to suicide (iirc) a year ago or so i think, and then his grandpa kicked the bucket earlier this year. I don't know why he never mentioned his grandpa in that pitypost but just thought you should know.
He has mentioned his grandpa and his bestfriend and his house flooding and getting married and becoming a father.. he has mentioned all of this... the problem is that he says one thing and then says another... WE all understand that, thats not the problem its the continuous "It's ready just fixing something here then ill release it" to "i feel its not perfect its driving me crazy i have to redo 2 renders" thats the problem its the whole I got you fam i got your back to then run away the moment shit happens. makes him look unreliable and makes him look like a liar. then doubts show up saying " hey maybe nobody passed maybe he's just milking" (i have seen these post) thats the problem and it gives ammo to people that are already fed up. Lets see if today he keeps his new promise he made in discord or will he break it again.
 
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