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Hey guys.
I appreciate all of the feedback on the last post about how most of you want the update to be delivered.
I will not be releasing in chunks, it will be in one large update.
I took some time to really think things through and I've come up with a hopeful solution to relieve some of my stress about releasing something though.
I do not have a current release date scheduled for the actual update and I do not plan on sharing one until it is packaged and tested and ready to release.
I am admittedly getting hit by many waves of second thoughts. I've reworked 2 of the scenes and have come to a point where I needed some time away from working on the game itself as it was becoming a bit self destructive since what I assume is grief I am dealing with was being channeled into doubting myself. I don't want to go down that rabbit hole again.
It's also been very pleasant to throw myself into something to work and distract myself with that doesn't need me to be very emotionally sound.
In this time I've done a lot of "side" work and I do have some release dates for some of it.
Firstly the birthday renders will be made up to date. This will include the girls in the months of March-May. (Zoe, Wendy, Talismah, Tia, Hannah, Eden, Katie, Aubrey, Emiko, Blue/Orange, Lauren, Anna, Yuki, Green)
These will be released on May 20th at 12:00 EST
Secondly, something that's been talked about for a long time has finally been made.
It is called "Day in the life of" or "DITLO" for short. (This is my hopeful remedy for my release anxiety)
This will be a series of short stories featuring characters and what they did on previous days in the story and the first one will be centered around Harper.
All renders will be in 4k (except for in the future when they're added as playable stories from the main game, they'll have to be scaled down to 1080p, the standalone will still be 4k though)
This first set will be released on May 28th at 12:00 EST
(More info on this will be in my next post)
Thirdly, I have reworked the Character Sheets.
Looking back at it, I'm not happy with the format I chose for them previously. Also a lot of measurements have changed and I also wanted to broaden the age range a bit.
These will be released on May 30th at 12:00 EST
Once again, there are no release plans for the update yet.
I'll be completely honest when I say I'm not doing very well emotionally. I'm okay, like life is still going on but I'm finding everything to be very tasking and difficult still. This situation has caused a lot of old issues to pop back up from things that happened in the past I think.
All I want to do is lay in bed, I'm fighting myself every day to get up and be a father and husband and to work on the game.
I'm talking to my therapist twice a week and doing everything I can but nothing is working.
I know it's a "time heals all wounds" situation but the more time that passes the more I feel like I'm suffocating.
I feel like I'm on a self destructive meltdown and I have no way to stop it. Every move I can make is the wrong move somehow.
Setting the dates for this side content is very much on purpose to try and kickstart that part of my brain to get my shit together.
I don't want to unpause pledges until I release the update but at the same time I don't know when that will be and I have a family to provide for.
Either decision will stress the fuck out of me since I don't feel like I deserve anything and the guilt will eat at me and make things worse or I'll pause and feel guilty for spending time away from family for no immediate gain and the stresses of that will compound into something worse.
And that "both sides suck" is true for just about every decision I have to make right now.
God my bed looks very appealing right now thinking about this stuff.
Sorry for venting, probably shouldn't include my brain vomit here since it's a bit too personal and I don't want anyone worrying too much about me. Might edit it out later.
I just wish I could get out of my own way right now.
I don't have a whole lot left to say.
As always thank you all for showing your support and all of the kind messages.
I hope to have better news soon.
Thank you for caring enough about something I make to read these.
Love you guys and talk to you soon.
