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November 1st, 2024
Hey everyone and Happy Halloween!
I personally haven't celebrated Halloween because it's never been a big thing wherever I've lived but I know its huge for a lot of you so I hope you enjoy yourselves.
I'm finishing up a few things before I can put the update out there and the next post will have the link. I won't give you an exact date yet because you and I both know that has never worked for me. I find that when I set a date and have some things to finish, I screw up more than I fix just thinking about the date. I know some of you have reached out telling me to take my time and have been nothing but supportive. More than I deserve and I appreciate all of you for it.
Warning : Long read
I can't speak for anyone else but for me personally, the urgency keeps me going. The fact that I know I have a lot riding on something makes me work harder. A week ago, I finished serving my last day at the company I worked at briefly. I couldn't just leave because of the contract and had to stay for a bit so that's done now. No matter how much working a 9-5 job would help me, I can't help but feel something gnawing at me telling me that all I need to do is focus on this VN and focus on it hard. I just know I'm supposed to do this and it isn't about how much money I can make but how much I'm enjoying whatever I make with this VN.
I sat down with someone for a while and planned things out. My biggest problem is procrastination. I was supposed to have completed a much bigger chunk of the VN by now. I have plans for more VNs that I've written before I even started this one. Over the past few weeks I've realized that I got too comfortable with what little success and luck I've had thanks to you guys and the people who support the game on other platforms. I was someone who replied to every comment. Praise or even criticism. And now I still haven't created the new discord server. I don't even know when it got away from me and started snowballing. The truth is I got too comfortable. It's something I'm ashamed of because I let things slip away. After multiple talks with this person, I've decided to just push myself over this speedbump I'm facing and give you guys and anyone else supporting the game what you deserve - me being honest about the shortcomings I've had for a while and a commitment that I'll turn things around back to how they used to be. I've always known I had this problem but I was never able to overcome it. I'm changing that this month and I apologize for treating this page like a diary but I feel like you guys who have been supporting me for so long deserve transparency. After this episode goes live, I'm going to start implementing this plan I've made. The gap between updates is upsetting to me and is something I can and will change. I know some of you don't mind the payments but I can't in good faith take your money right now so November payments are paused. On time weekly updates will be back, I'll be back on discord to answer any questions you might have and the VN will be updated more frequently. Again, I apologize for the long read. Thank you for sticking around if you made it this far.
I hope you've all been well and have had a great week so far.
-CC
